I met my best friend, Amber Marsh, in Sunday School when we were 9. She was tan and care-free, sitting on the windowsill with her legs propped up. I had just moved to South Carolina and was happy to find a friend in her.
I wasn't a care-free child and have not grown into a care-free adult either, but Amber helped my world be more joyful, exciting, and FUN. Many of my best memories growing up involve her. Anyone who gave Amber the time of day was blessed with an outpouring of sweetness and exuberance in response.
Today I received news that Amber Alice Marsh Williams committed suicide last night. I am still trying to rap my head around the news. Amber experienced a lot of pain living in a world that was not as loving as she was.
Her death has left me asking questions I have never truly asked before. What is mercy? Where is my dear friend now? Is she finally at peace? What could I have done more? and so many Why's...?
I hope that your prayers will be with Amber and her family.
*I debated whether I should post this news or not, but I believe that Amber would have liked it.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Mourning
Posted by Amy at 4:36 PM
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Oh Amy...your post made me cry and I agree that Amber would have liked it. I think that you knew and understood her more than anyone else in our world. I never understood how you and Amber could be best friends because you were so absolutly different, but even in the time that Amber and I had our differences, I was glad that she had you because I knew that our differences came from the fact that I just didn't understand her the way you did. You are in my thoughts too because I knew how much she meant to you and how much you meant to her and assumed that you would not be able to avoid asking yourself those hard questions. My heart and prayers go out to her family and to you.
I was just as stunned as you were. Lately she seemed so happy but I guess I didn't know all of the details. Like Nell said, Amber was so lucky to have a friend as great as you and as understanding as you. My mind was spinning today remembering the times that I spent with her. I wasn't always the nicest person to her but she was always nice to everyone that she knew. The world has really lost a special person.
I'm glad you posted, I would never have known. I am so sad, I cried too. I haven't seen her since we were teenagers, but I think of her every time I make my finger go double jointed. I can only do it with one, but she could do it with all of them! She was sweet, and outgoing, and wild. That is truly sad, and we will say a special prayer for her and her family and also her friends who mourn her loss. Love, Kalia
In all of my memories of Amber I can not think of a single time she ever said anything rude or mean to me. Amber was one of the most loving people I've ever known and I'll never forget her laugh. I agree she would have enjoyed your post.
I agree too, that Amber would've loved you to post about her, anything that made people think about her. She loved the attention. I thought about you today wondering how you were doing because I knew y'all were best friends. I hope you're ok and writing out thoughts and talking about it will always help. Remember that Heavenly Father is just and He will care for Amber.
You were an amazing friend to Amber even when it was really challenging. I believe Amber is happy again. It will be fun to meet her again when we pass to the other side.
I, too, immediately thought of you and knew your pain would be deep. I have kept up with Amber on facebook lately and will miss her comments. My heart hurts so for Donovon and her family. I admit I am at a loss because I truly WANT to reach out to the Marsh's but just don't know what to do. She was lucky to have you for a friend. I know more than anything, she wanted to be happy and loved unconditionally (don't we all?). I know our Father loves her and like your Mom, I believe she is happy. You are an awesome young woman. Please know we are all thinking of you!
Amy, I am so sorry you lost a friend. You know often times people make mistakes in a moment of deserate thought and in that moment of choice unfortunately they can't take it back. I often think that if they could they would.
I am sure that there was nothing anyone could have done to prevent it.
Sorry for your loss.
Kim
Amy, I am so sorry you lost a friend. You know often times people make mistakes in a moment of deserate thought and in that moment of choice unfortunately they can't take it back. I often think that if they could they would.
I am sure that there was nothing anyone could have done to prevent it.
Sorry for your loss.
Kim
Oh, Amy! I'm so sorry to hear about your dear friend! That must be so hard - you are in my thoughts and prayers constantly. This makes us so thankful for the plan of salvation.
You are such a great friend to me. You are strong - I really admire you for it.
Love, Haley
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